7pm, office. Looking around and I was again the last one remained. I let out a sigh, it’s time to go. I grabbed my backpack, turned off the light, activated the alarm, and left. Out of the building, I walked alone to the train station. How many nights did I work overtime? No matter how hard I try every day, dreams still seem so far away, so distant. Is life wasted on living?
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can’t be there where you are
There’s something missing in my heart
Those people who travel by train in late evening are mostly lonely. Some are tired and slept soundly, and some looked coldly out of the window. After a busy working day, most of them are relaxed in their personal space. Unlike the morning, the cabin was quiet. I recognized some familiar faces who usually take the ride in these hours. I wondered if they also recognized me. May be one day we will reach out, start a conversation and make the journey interesting. Meanwhile, lonely people are travelling by the lonely train that running on the lonely track across this lonely city.
Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze upon me
Guilty roads to an endless love
There’s no control
Are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done
They tell me
How many times did I have fast food dinner alone? Most of my friends had already started their families. They will say, “Get a girlfriend and have a life!” And I’ll reply, “I enjoy the freedom of being single.” But this is an excuse. Nobody teach us how to love and more seriously, how to face a breakup. I think I’ll never have those life experiences of my friends. Although being alone, I find companion on the Internet – my online friends who like my posts and comment on them. Now in my bedroom, facing the monitor, I express my feelings through the keyboard in this post. Loneliness comes with life, but it also adds beauty to life – we learn patience, faith and hope from it.
There’s nowhere to run
I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be
You’re asking me
To feel the things you never show?
Lyrics: Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely – Backstreet Boys